Michelle's

If you want me , please cherish me hard !

2011-11-08T06:18:00.000-08:00

If i love you , treat you well , cherish it hard . But once i totally give up into it , den you can just fuck off from my life and i wont change myself to the better and treat you damn fucking good anymore . Your choice to decide . People that understand and know me well , knows my temper and attitude well enough . I can be damn good to you if you deserve . If you dont deserve but i love you , i will tolerate your temper and every shit that you gave . But after my hurtful and shitty relationship , for me , there's no such thing as " i love you " anymore . Those are just a word to make you happy .
Action speaks louder than words , i need proof than just using mouth to say . If " he " will love me back , ha ! thats joke ! as it will be miracle already .
Hongster never die, tiongxim is a lie, flirting is your life.

In life , We cant have both that we want at the same time , because in the end , we will still have to choose either one as our priority. We cant hold on both in the same timing , and have to learn to let go easily in order to get hurt the most. FML !

Go on .. Just break with her .

2011-11-04T09:31:00.000-07:00

People's come and go , what comes around goes around .
After a hurtful relationship , it teaches me , nothing last forever .
I gain experience in this hurtful relationship , so i would hope that i can forget those memories sooner or later to stop making me so fucking sad and have fucked up mood to influence every emotional of mine k . Time can prove everything , i hope i can did it as soon as possible . You wont regret that you leave me , because you think other "GIRLS" treat you better ! 11:11 , If you think you are happier when you with them , den choose them then . You dont love me , and so .. i cannot manage to give you happiness . Boy , you hurt me badly , but i'm alright . ^^
<3 11 girlfriends .

CB DOGGY ! -.-

2011-10-22T20:20:00.000-07:00

People's come and go , what comes around goes around .
After a hurtful relationship , it teaches me , nothing last forever .
All that i know is that , you dont love me anymore . Boy, bare this in mind , Being a spare tyre is not fun at all -.- . I really hope i was you , so that , i may know what are you thinking all along . What you treat me as ? Friends or just stranger ! DD:
Tiong xim and stick to one , is all useless . If the person that meant the most to you , insist of leaving , you will still lost them no matter what . Fuck those memories . You finally speaks out the truth , and i had to accept it and let everything go.
You know her for just a day , and you hold her hand , hug her , kiss her , lc with her . FUCK YOU ! Still lie to her and said that its just fate to let you all be together , you this CB DOG ! KNN .
11:11 , Be as dog as you could , break with her soon lah FUCK .

you just dont understand .

2011-10-17T08:32:00.000-07:00

I dont understand what you are thinking all along , you know who love you most , and we play on you . Just dont get it why you just dont understand the situation . relationship is only for you and me , so dont pull your brother or my sisters in , please and thank you (: hope you just understand .
11:11 , Just treat me the way that i deserve .
I believe i dont deserve your fucking attitude when you are the only boy that i treat so fucking good . Even my sisters was shocked about it . Please dont took everything that i treat for granted can ? you took it for granted for long , is about half year already . But why you just cannot feel my sincerity and understand ? I'm going not to take it anymore , toleration do have limit ): .

you are forcing me to do things that i didnt want to .

2011-10-11T10:26:00.000-07:00

The most painful part of leaving the person you love is that they'll never come after you and thats what you always do, and that let you have the satisfication that i will always be there waiting and still waiting.
What should i do ? Its still the same , one heart is holding on but yet one heart is letting go </3
Its cause me alot of question mark and who can help me to sort it out ? O.o
Can i be easily replaced ? Its seem so easy for you .

You are forcing me to do something that i cannot able to decide it . i dont know i should choose you or my classmate , its so fucking difficult to let me choose . Please dont find trouble neh ): I just dont want both of you to be involve in a fight because of me and both to be injured of some stupid things that are not important at all . Because of those disiaosiao stuff and those EX thingy , its freaking lame you know, dont you guys think so ? O.o I just dont want you to leave me too , understand ?!! you are always forcing me to make decision that i may not want to, and thats make me so damndamndamn stress. And you say if i didnt manage to tell you everything and if you find out , i will be in dead meat ): Why did you always treat me so bad and fierce ? Cant you treat me better than that . Cant you treat me like last time ?? I shouldnt have let you have the satisfication that i will always be there helping you all around, waiting for you and giving you support even if i dont agree with the matter / situation . what should i choose to actually make those situation solve and get rid of everything perfectly ? ): Boy , even i'm sick , you still care yourself more .
I know you love to fight , and you know i dont like you to be in trouble , but why dont you cant stand in my shoe and think for me first ? selfish ! </3
11:11 , I hope you love me deeply back asap .
11:11 , One day you will because of me , left your brother group .
11:11 , Your life without me , you will be damn miserable .
11:11 , Learn to know what is REGRET .
11:11 , Stop thinking that i will always be there waiting , treat me the way i deserve . Be back to me as well .

when i need you , where are you ?

2011-09-27T19:50:00.001-07:00

What am i to you ? Can you just tell me the truth ?
Which type of guy you are ? Can you tell me ?
You can treat someone so damn good in this minute but next minute like macham 360 degree mood jitao change like as if i dont even know you at all ? ):
I seem to dont understand you and even myself , because i didnt even know what i really want . Am i holding back to those memories thats why i still love you as much as last time or am i really deeply in love with you ? I really dont know ? ):
And this relationship cause me alot of question mark as i dont know what am i doing and it seem that alot of thing happened without any reason in it .
When you need me , i didnt failed to be there for you , i even willing to waste my money to take cab down to find you when you know my 1 month allowance is just $100 !!! ):
But everytime when you hurt me and i needed you the most , where are you ? </3 You not even be by my side at all , not even once ! Is it because i didnt failed to reject you in everything thats why you took everything for granted and treat everything just like its normal ?
I know i may not be as good as your ex but i will be trying harder and harder . but the main problem is , its not the same as the past anymore . We seem to be more like stranger than friends you know . I didnt know how your ex treated you . I only know for me , I'm worried for you everytime but is just that i wont and i dont know how to express out my feelings , which that cause you think that i dont love you at all </3
Same old story that everybody knows, it's one heart holding on, one heart letting go </3

2011-09-26T20:29:00.001-07:00

I know you dont love me and you dont need to explain to me .
Just hope that you will change to the better and remember how i treated you , because everyone said that one day you will just regret for taking me for granted by everything you do . taking me such like a spare tyre . you done too much bad things behind my back and i find it out all by myself with my help by my girlfriends . I dont think you will love me back but is just that i cannot control my love by loving you so much . I wish , if you grow up and become more mature , you will be cherishing your girlfriend more than your brother but not by listening to what they say . Feeling is important , i hope you will have
a very strong feeling to love me bad badly but then .. its such a joke because i am very confirm that its impossible . If its happened , than i wont be called michelle lim , just like pig will never fly . ^^ (:

This is what you teaches me .

2011-09-26T10:18:00.000-07:00

Once the day you left , you teaches me , nothing last forever .
Even though how much or how deep i love , its all useless .
Decision is all depend on you and i guess everyone was right . I had made a wrong decision since from the start of this relationship and this wrong decision hurt myself so badly while its ruin my life by loving you so much .
I understand everything happened for a reason , but since last time till now , i didnt even know whats the reason that you broke up with me . But then .. i think i know why . Which is you dont love me anymore . And you are fucking dog till what your brother say and you just do it right ? Brother ask you to broke up with me ? Ask you to ask her for stead and left me behind crying for you badly ? Anything also listen , such a good dog that will just keeping quiet and didnt even know how to bark here and there . Since brother is so important , den dont find girlfriend lah !!!! </3

I know she understand you more than me .
I know she know your brother more than me . ( you know why ? ) --> because you never bring me to go meet your brother before , and its fucking unfair .
You said you love me more -'- say that you afraid your brother will snatch me away . what fucking excuses is this man . KNN !!!!!

Boys are just like a fish

2011-09-11T08:51:00.000-07:00

Someone told me this :
Everything changes , what meant to be yours , it would be . But if it doesnt meant to be , how hard you tried , he will still walk away and left you crying and hurting yourself badly .
Boys is just like a fish .
Letting go and stop holding on to a guy who doesnt even love you at all . You love him , i know that you can wait for him no matter what , but since from last time till now he didnt even cherish you and even regret . Than whats the point ? Its just telling yourself that you are just like a fool and keep waiting for something who will never came true . He just want someone to love him , thats all . He wont love you back , because he sick of everything already . What he want , you give . Didnt even say a NO towards him before , what the fucking shit is this . Wake up lah , chelle ! ):
I know that you love him more than you love yourself , but did he know ? No right , so stop treating someone so damn fucking good that he took everything for granted . Its dont even look like you !

No point .

2011-09-08T06:52:00.000-07:00

I find it no point letting you know whether i still love you or i didnt . Relationship is nothing to you , i guess . I can be easily replaced by someone because i'm nothing to you . You wont regret because they treat you better (: You wont think of me , because i dont belong in your life . Am i right ? (: I used more than half a year to tell myself this , because i cannot believe that you had really left when you are once someone i cannot afford to lose . Love you or not , doesnt matter anymore . You had choosen your own route and i shall let it go . Impossible for this relationship since your last called , it telling me that i'm nothing to you but just a spare tyre . You are lucky , even my sisters said . I dont treat boy this way , you are the first and the last . I'm afraid of a relationship anymore . Thanks to you , my dear boy ^^

Why I'm not given a chance ? 11:11 , iloveyou <3 I want you back please ~

standing on the same spot without moving on

2011-09-03T04:52:00.001-07:00

Half of a year past , and i still standing at the same spot without moving on . I dont know what make you gave up on me . But seriously , i dont wish to know anymore . Although you let me remind of every memories whenever i go , but i guess , i can try to move on from now on (: because sisters let me know that if the person is worth it , den we shall go on loving them, but since you dont love me and keep playing on my feeling , den why i shall wait ?? I should be wasting my time to handle sisters stuff den crying over someone that dont know how to cherish and treasure a relationship well and keep hurting me non - stop . I'm hurt too much , i dont want to get hurt anymore . If you know how to regret , den i think pig will fly (: i know we are impossible anymore , so i should really forget you . delete you in my life is the best thing i can do .

what i want is very simple , but just that you cannot give .

2011-09-03T04:38:00.000-07:00

I want you but you want others . I making you to think that i dont love you anymore , althought i still love you alot . Because i find it no point letting you know whether i love you or i didnt as overall , you will still find girls and been in a relationship with them . I dont understand you and i dont understand myself . I knew it long ago that our relationship is already impossible and will never get back but i just cannot seem to let it go . Maybe for you letting go is easy but for me is really damn difficult . You remind me of our memories whenever i go ,thinking of you like 24 hour never ending but still .. i have to face the facts that you have your girlfriend . you will hack care of everything . Its been half a year but i still standing at the same spot without moving on . yet you had already move on long ago and had been changing girlfriend again and again . This time will you all last ? I hope wont last , and i not being heartless . i prefer you single than attached . Everytime when you are in a relationship , thats hurt me the most . And i cried for you more than a thousand times . I sick and tired of everything but i just seem to keep holding on to it .
Boy , what i want is really very simple , i just want you back !

I dont understand you at all .

2011-08-28T05:47:00.000-07:00

Would you be back to me ? i really wish you would , everytime when i receive private number , i hope that was you but not others . will you call me once again ? will you ? And i dont understand what you want , and i dont understand why you would want to choose to leave me alone den having me by your side . Am i not good enough , if i am , i will really try my best to treat you the best that i can . Boy, i just dont get it why you want them but not me . They treat you better than what i treat you or you want people's that treat you badly ? everytime when you are in a relationship , thats hurt me the most TT
wanting you back is an impossible to me because you have too much reason to say NO and i dont get it why , but if that impossible would really happened , that will be the greatest smile on my face . And i swear and i will definitely cherish it hard and be cheerful once again . But .. thats what i want , but not yours .. So .. I'm thinking too much D: Hope it would really happen , really hope so ^^
You are the one and always will be .
I tried to move on before but Moving on is really difficult for me .
I wondering who you really love now ? am i the worst or else why you choose to leave . </3
People's come and go as they wish , but why you left me without any reason behind . Why you leave me alone ? Didnt you know , you are part of my life and i cannot afford to lose you .
I hope you will broke up with your girlfriends soon , i not being heartless . If this cookie monster would really break the record of mine , i tell you , i really have no comment to everything and just to regret . I think i better than her , seriously ! Your decision would make me think that actually you like girls that is .. I not suit you , thats why you left .

whats your answer ?

2011-07-31T05:47:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to know did you really love me deeply before ? Thats is more than enough . I know you wont be back , your hint is too obvious . I didnt regret anything that i done because i love you and i really love you alot . I can tolerate you , i will try to sacrifice things for you . I gave you all my heart but since you still think i not good enough for everything that i had done , den i only can say i'm sorry . I'm sorry to let your feeling fade , i'm sorry i not good enough , i'm sorry i never be a good girlfriend before . Overall , i'm sorry .
I may forgive but i will never forget .
I will forever remember the memories that you gave , i will cherish hard (:
Boy , if this is the answer you want , which is finding girl all over again and again , i will try to let it be . Although its hurt to me , but you are happy with it .

I still hope you will be back , but would you ?
You seem to have me whenever you want, you are so confidence and confirm that i wont leave you . But do you ever think before if one day i really cannot take it anymore ? cannot tolerate anymore ? Just too tired of everything and let everything go . Let go and end everything which i think that its doesnt even belong to me from the very start of the relationship ? I love you , and i hope you love me back . I once thought we could last but i didnt expect this would be our outcome , I'm afraid i might one day think clearly and cannot manage to continue-ing to love you because , you give me a feeling of insecurity in everything . Boy , iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou . Be back to me alright , love me deeply back , just like what you used to.. i need you more than anyone . I hope everything back to normal and we shall last . Hope it would really came true ♥ but .. overall.. am i lying to myself ? O.o I need your answer, i really need it . because i'm not the one who is holding on to the answer anymore .

My answer , your answer , everyones answer .

2011-07-26T07:35:00.000-07:00

I still love you deeply , but sometimes you make me think that i dont know how to continue to love you anymore , because you did give me a feeling that you dont love me at all . you dont wish to find back the feeling as you treat me as nothing . You will ignored me whenever you want , talk to me whenever you like . I dont want to be your 24 hour spare tyre , i want you back , i want you to love me back ! (: Love and feeling can be control but only depending whether you wanted to control it or not . Will you be back , just like what we used to be ? Only you can answer this question of mine because I'm not the one who is holding on to the anwer anymore .
I do understand that everything is different anymore , even if we get back together , feeling will not be the same . Just like sisters said , even if it possible for you to be back to me , i have to made a decision . As i only can manage to choose one , and since you have help me to choose the answer , you left , and thats the answer you gave . I have no choice and have to follow everything . I'm tired , i'm sick of everything . I'm seriously tired of holding on to everything anymore , you will never understand how much i going through . I know once i end it and everything is over . Everything will just turn out to memories and everything will just stop once i end this relationship of ours .

Dont ever say that you understand me when me , myself dont even understand myself anymore .

I dont get it why once you saw me and you bend down straight away to prevent me from seeing you . Am i that scary ? am i that irritating to you ? Just dont get it why you must become like that , cant we treat everything just like normal ?

stranger in public and close friend in private

2011-07-23T21:29:00.000-07:00

I dont know for you whether i have done enough for you anot , but still i just wish and hope you would be back . I just want to know the answer , can you tell me ? D: I afraid of looking at you especially into your eye because i was still deeply in love with you . I dont know whats reason make you dont love me anymore but i know and i confirm that i still love you deeply inside till you cannot expect . Because friends around you will never tell you how much you hurt me and how much i want you back because they know that no point saying as feeling for you have faded away . But boy , No matter what , I still hope and wish you will be back to me , and i swear thats the best things i want in my life for NOW ♥ Please come back , i love you ♥
Oh yah , stranger in public and close friend in private ? LOL .
I dont want to be stranger , i really dont want . I dont know what you had been thinking all along .
Everything is different anymore , and i confirm that the feeling that you gave me is different from last time already .

Regretted .

2011-07-20T06:17:00.000-07:00

I have a terrible and complicated feeling last night . I dont know and i dont understand why you keep reject my call for no reason, but still.. i could understand that maybe you was still mad at me as yesterday night it was the first time i didnt manage to answer your call ( midnight ). I'm sorry , I'm fail to do so at this point of time as it was really late at night and i was sleeping soundly because i was real tired . I didnt expect you to call me at such a late timing when tomorrow lesson is still on . I'm been thinking that you might be sleeping soundly at that period of time D: i hope you could understand but.. all i get is an ignored from you on that day onwards . which i also dont know what should i do and all i could do was cry ? While you enjoying your ignored and care for things that didnt even bother about me . What i could really do is just standing a side emo-ing and crying non-stop ? Its hurt me you know . I dont get it why ignored is what i get when I have already sacrifice so much for you. People do said that you will become like that is because you think and you are so confidence that you may find a girl that can sacrifice for you so much again more than me . I dont want us to become stranger but Overall the outcome that i get was an ignored by a person i love the most deeply inside . </3
I really regretted for not answering the called , i hope you could call me back again and stop rejecting whatever call that i made .

I miss the time that you hug me tightly , hold my hand like nobody business . Boy, i miss you and love you alot . I still cannot believe that our relationship really ends . I still expecting you to be back , hope you would talk to me without any worries . You told me nothing is impossible in this world , so should i believe you and keep waiting for you ? I really willing to give in anything eh , you should know right . I give in all that i can but i dont know whether you knew it anot D:
曾经拥有也曾经失去过
Come back please . I need you more than anyone .
Will you be back ? D:
I know that i'm afraid to face you when i saw you . Thats because i love you too much already . My tongue tie when i wanted to talk to you, thats why i choose to walk away . I feel like talking to you, but i dont dare to take the first move . I just want you back, boy ♥

3 month that you had left me D:

2011-07-11T07:24:00.000-07:00

Before i decided to meet you up . I was so curious of what our reaction would be, how am I going to face you infront of everyone . I'm was happy to see you there but I just dont know what attitude should i give you . When we are looking at each other, I didnt expect our outcome would be "ignored", seriously . I actually though that i can get over you, but i was wrong . I will still be afraid of looking at you, especially into your eye . Even though we meeted up for just afew min and we didnt talk at all, but at least you are willing to meet me up because of your brother stuff . Actually i hoped you will talk to me than treating me just like a stranger . But I hoped too much , because I'm just a normal stranger to you isnt it ? I cry infront of you and yet you didnt concern me at all . At that point of time, I was like so sad and my heart hurts .
I wondering Is it that because i was your ex - girlfriend thats why you treat it as nothing happened and didnt concern me at all ? If that was last time of you, you will hug me tightly and sayang me straight D: I miss the time that you hug me tightly , hold my hand like nobody business . Boy, i miss you and love you alot . I never change , i still cry for you badly everytime </3
I find it weird , I dont get it why people treat each other as stranger after their break up when they was once in love with each other deeply inside . Once hug tightly, treat each other well and telling each other that they meant everything to their world but ending up being stranger once again .

Today is the 3 month that you had left me . Precisely, i think you had forgotten about everything.
When you saw me, i know that you dont feel anything at all. But me, I'm still looking at you is all emotional i have and What you care is about you, your brother, your girlfriend and anything that nothing concern about me at all . This broke my heart and i couldn't find anything to heal it because after seeing you , all the memories came back and its just like it happened yesterday, the tears from my eye keep rolling down and it's kill me deeply inside. i wonder , can you feel it ? I just want to be your special girl in your life , can ? D: Boy, the "special" that i want is not by deleting me in facebook , but in some good ways .

You had gone .

2011-07-07T08:04:00.000-07:00

I dont think you are the boy that i once know already . He had gone, he had left me . Now the boy that i know is just a boy that can fall for a girl a MINUTE later . He will forever success in wooing the girl he want . I dont know why, but watching you been in a relationship all along and will never ever been single in your life . I dont know why you like to been in a relationship . I only finally understand that you had never fall hard for me before, or maybe even didnt love me before bah . I find myself so foolish to cherish you so hard and give in all that i can but the answer that you gave was i not good enough when all the truth is your feeling had fade away . Last time what you told me ? Once found that feeling had faded away, must tell each other so that we can do something to hold on . But end up is you not telling me anything , anything also never . You only told me , you want to walk away finding good excuses, when i had fall for you deeply inside already . What a miserable life i had , thanks to you to make michelle lim ming kin become like this and will never be back to her normal life again. she had fall hardly and suffering . I wanted to hold on since from the start and till now, but all you trying to tell me was "since the day you left me , everything become impossible" . I just dont get it why you cannot be single in your life . Single not good ? Attached better ? please, both have their good and bad point .
Pray hard : Please let him know whats the feeling of alone and let him become more mature can . You are really immature till the max that i really had nothing to say already . Your action and words hurt me badly . Thats too much already eh D: I'm also human okay ? I have feeling , dont treat me as nothing or punching bag . I had my own problem to settle , to trouble about , dont add on stress on me . Boy , i hope you will be back to the last time that i had known you , can ? Dont become so chee bye can anot ? You really overboard till the max , and yet i still tolerate non-stop . People do have their own limit alright ? Haiz . Can "impossible" be "possible" anot ?

You are not the boy that i know anymore .

2011-07-01T22:49:00.000-07:00

I love a heartless person that i dont know what he take me as from the very start of the relationship , seriously . Knowing that he dont love me AT ALL . But i still treat everything like nothing happened before, he give me attitude for nothing yet i wont mad at him , keep tolerating non-stop. I think i might be crazy falling in love with him. If he deserve to come back, he would have came back and wont leave me alone already, than keep finding girls around him and been in a relationship with them. I think he believe that theres alot of better girl out there. Lose and gain at the same time isnt it ? Just like what he used to said, few hours ago : I love her alot <-- Fuck, like no her can die. Next minute later : had been in a relationship, i love my girlfriend alot. i want last long long with her and keep baby here and there all around . 2 words , one finger to you lahh hor. FUCK YOU -'- Isnt that what hongster used to do ? Keep say you not hongster . Please lah, hongster never die , "your name" CCB ! Grrr.. Make me seriously pissed -.- What kind of person you are siahh ? Can be good to others in this minute, and can treat them damn SHIT in the next minute. I dont get it why ALL 14 years old girl accept you so easily, you will always success in asking them for stead . Would never fail, WHY ?
You dont have the looks eh walaoeh ! You also never good till where lehh ? You are a piece of shit siahh !
I understand that you will treat everyone of them so good , and is damn good in the beginning and treated them like shit in the ending. But when will the ending comes ? 1 Month later ? Why karma never hits you yet i'm the one who kena the suffering for such a long period.
I have alot of things to tell you but its too late. You are not the boy that i know anymore, you CHANGED . Everything will not be the same anymore since the day you left me . Everything wont be back the same, time wont rewind .
Curse die you, HEHEHE ! faster break lahh hor :P

You expect too much, what you want, i cannot manage to do it .

2011-07-01T02:10:00.000-07:00

Heyhey ! I'm back again :D
I already think that i have done my very best to treat you well enough already, since you still left den i really have nothing to say. Since you think others treat you better than what i treat you , well... good for you . You think you treat me better than what i treat you ? you think you treat me well enough, think back again, its like shit you know -.- Is i keep tolerate your temper and all, you didnt tolerate mine before <-- you know what ? because i didnt attitude you before, i didnt treat you like a dog , keep barking here and there. I treat you well . I can tolerate you for so long , you might feel happy already. No one in my life i can tolerate them for so long , really so long. No one dare to say my brother bad things infront of me because i will get mad -'- Although at that point of time i was so mad at you, but i didnt attitude you, i still talk to you NICELY . I will tolerate your attitude and temper is because i really love you too much, You making my heart damn pain and its dying . You didnt even cherish every moment when we are together last time, i know why, you no need to explain, because your mind is telling you that your relationship is nothing to you. even if the girl left you, you will still find another girl a MINUTE later. Isnt that fast for you ? Right ? :D I'm glad that you can be so open minded and your feeling changes so fast right ? WOW ~
You think everyone treat you very good, really brother here and there ? Let me tell you, they said they treat you like a dog, even thought they say you their brother. Brother is just a name , if it really meant it, they wont treat you badly want lo. Sisters always said your bad things infront of me, now .. I'm not stupid anymore, i wont help you but i will join them and attacked you. Doesnt that the treatment you deserve ? You dont deserve my love, so for now.. you deserve my bad . I will treat you for what you deserve, i wont tolerate you anymore. You treat me damn badly last time, so i will double up everything to you one way through okay ? :D I will not be as weak as what you think. I'm not evil, is just that you are over my limitation. Michelle lim ming kin is fuck up now because of you , this kind of fucking guy in the world who dont deserve her love, only deserve her bad.

What i hope was :
"YOU" will get your karma soon.
Brother left you, no girl want you, no one to accompany you for life. Let you know what's the feeling of ALONE -.-

One week sister's outing <3
This are those photo we took recently on sister's day (ktv session)

Group photo :D Is like so finally :D woohoo ~

I will be concentrating on my sister's now. I cannot afford to lose any one of them.

I'm tiong xim to sister want hor :D so good of me right :D:D

Sister's outing (cycling)

This are the photo we took yesterday :D

There's still much more photo out there.
Have fun with them yesterday and i injured my leg , and is damn pain D:

Anyway, taking photo may let my mood get better :D

To make me lie to myself that actually , i enjoyed my life everyday :D

"YOU " can enjoy your life so am i :D
And i believe i can enjoy my life with my sister much more better than you !

Why am i so unlucky D:

2011-06-27T09:58:00.000-07:00

27 June

Hahaha! I had not been posting my blog for 6 days D: Sorry ^^, I really have no time to post my blog as I'm out everyday and reach home is about late at night D:
Tsk ! Seriously, i hate my life ! Why so many bad things keep happened on me ? WHY ?!
First is about relationship, second is about family ?!! I DONT WANT to have third thing happen ! Relationship, family and sisters are the 3 most important things in my life. So, please sisters, Dont stressed me up anymore, no more others, or else i will really gone mad. Seriously, i think i really really cannot take it ANYMORE, if everytime have so much unhappy and unlucky stuff happened on me. Everything is just like tsunami, one way through. Can spare me some space to breadth ? I cannot take it, really cannot take it . Although i manage to not to say out his name or things about him nowadays is because i really have no time to worried about his stuff anymore. I'm curious did his life live better without me or ? but i think.. he will definitely live much more better than me. he may out with his brothers and girls everyday -.- Finding girls again and again. never ending. i dont think karma will happened on him as what ahqin say, he wont gets his karma , never ever ! As he didnt even serious in every relationship before, how to get karma ? right !!?? Thats ture anyway. And nothing seem to pull him back to me again. I'm just his past. Past is past , like as if he will fucking care like that. He wont think back anything that happened before and continu-ing his life much more better than last time, everyday enjoy and enjoy non-stop. Dear god, why you treat him so good, yet you giving me suffering non-stop till i really going to collaspe. Is it that, if i can hang on till everything now and next time i will be enjoying my life ??And him is enjoying his life now and he suffering damn damn lot in the end. Like brothers left him, relationship fail and etc. i simply dont know whats called life. Everyone say life is unfair, so god can you be fair alittle bit. PLEASE D: I'm so freaking innocent, how can you make me so suffering and let my relationship so damn CHUI ! </3

26 June

Accompany sister to talk on phone in the midnight because she was sad. I only manage to sleep for about 3 hour as I'm out early in the morning to went to the place that i and him used to slack and play around. We used to sweet sweet here and there to let sisters envy us. HAHAHA ! But everything seem to be the past anymore. Actually, I wanted to went back to marina barrage but i didnt as i dont know and had already forget to take what bus there already, so i didnt manage to go there and think back our memories.
Marina barrage is the day he celebrated our 1 week anniversary, the first time i let him to hold my hand, kiss, play around and etc. He really gave me alot of memories which it cannot even make me to forget about him, memories will keep reminding me how sweet we used to be. How he used to shower his love, care and concern about everything. Thinking back, actually i didnt do much things to make him stay. I didnt use any action. All i used was words. He left telling me that everything is just a test from him to me and so.. i fail my test. He want action but not words. He telling me action speaks louder than words, everything is just too late when i'm realised. Everything became like that, i finally realised is actually not all his fault. Its take 2 hand to clap, i wont blame one but i will blame both ! D: Partly is also my fault, we should had talk things out den keep blaming each others for not doing well in the relationship. Its also my fault , i realised that actually last time i dont cherish him that much. After he left, den i realised that actually he is damn important to me. Seriously is damn important, macham no him i can die, just like if i lose my sistership i will gone crazy ! Both are seriously important to me, god is only letting me to choose one. I cannot afford to get 2 of them and so.. he left. i once thought that not letting him to know how much i love him because i wanted him to find it out himself and as i also didnt know how to express out my feeling. All of the care and concern is all in my heart and i keep it to myself. He doesnt know anything. I didnt know he so impatient to not finding it out himself and blame me for not treating him not good and so on. I not good to make him stay and so he left. NBCB !
And one fuck up things is that his EX- GIRLFIREND really does alot of things for him, when i didnt do anything for him before. After he left than i know that he love girls which treat him well like doing some sweet and girlish stuff for him. like.. Love letter <-- wtf is that -.- what generation already siah ! den cook what stupid food to him or what. cookie ? muffin ? -.- fuck up stuff. All of them not even my character siahh, how can i manage to do ? If i do all those stuff, also need take time for me to learn what right ? But he didnt even give me the time and all. All that he said was left left left. Say : I not good enough for you, always make you sad but not happy. I think theres better guy for you outside, so he left . <-- what lanjiao reason is that, want left and yet finding so much good excuses to be good people -.-
But sadly, his EX-GIRLFRIEND really created alot of good memories to him, do write alot of love
letter, cook food for him to eat, everyday been sending long long text to make him happy yet i cannot.
It really give me a bad feeling that they might patched after sometimes. And i think he love his EX GIRLFRIEND deeply inside, howhowhow ?? How am i going to kick this XMM that make him love her so deeply inside to simply kick her out of his life anymore and not even the memories left for him to think. he once tell me that he love was my character, but after sometimes, i realised, what he want or expect, i didnt even manage to do it for him. Its really too ridiculous. LOVE LETTER , COOKIE ? -.- BULLSHIT !! -'- If he really love me , he wont even care about all this stuff and left me alone .

Photo which recently taken this few days when i didnt post my blog (:

cousin's (:

Sister's (:

someone that meant alot to me

2011-06-21T11:47:00.000-07:00

It had been 2 days since i have last posted my blog, so now back blogging as i have nothing better to do and nothing to be busy about :D
We started too sudden and ended too fast. i know that we could’nt last but I didn’t expect it would be so fast.
I didnt know every of your relationhip did not even last till a month from the start. Is after you left me, den i know more things about you.
The memories that you created for me, i will always cherish and treasure. but I still hoping and wanted to collect a lot of good memories with you but its too late.

Tsk~ today is 21, Its a day which someone which meant alot to me came into my life, shower his love, teaches me how to truely love someone in my life and care everything only about me and him. he once treat me well, dote me well, love me well and did something that i did not expect it to happen in my life before. He's awesome in the beginning but suck TTM in the ending. He's the someone who created alot of good memories to me. The memory that is so important and precious that i cherish every single min and day with him. But sadly, everything was gone, just back to square one overall ! Stranger ? Not even friends ? How could the ending be like this ? I didnt want to have any ending from the start since we together because there's no such things as happy ending. knowing that he wont be back anymore, memory will only remain the same and it would stop there too ! Nothing will change his mind, because he is that sort of person that will never regret. broke up means broke up, no chance patching. And please freaking make it clear D:D: </3

I am still waiting for the impossible to happen. I know clearly that its over and nothing can bring you back to me once again. your feeling had faded away, everything just didnt manage to be the same as the past anymore. awaiting the impossible to come, knowing that it would be foolish if keep waiting with something that will not happened. Impossible is confirm, but i just cant seem to let it go. because every of your memories that you once gave, make me keep thinking and it cant seem to let go so easily. I remember every single word that you told me but knowing that most of it is BULLSHIT , but i still force myself to think that you are not as bad as what they said.

I love a person who once treat me well, dote me well, love me well. But he left me without any reason. I think the reason is because, i not good enough to make him stay. He does not love me anymore D: </3 Knowing that he love a girl alot, more than me. I still love him and want him back, even though thats impossible ! D:
Life is meaningless without him, *heartpain*
I'M SORRY , i not good enough. I did not manage to hold you back even though you insist to left me D: I'M SORRY, I'M SORRY! Really hope time could rewind </3

Boys are all the same .

2011-06-19T01:03:00.000-07:00

Out with sisters yesterday to fareast. There's nothing for us to bought so we bought nothing home D: shop around - slack - meet up with some guys - eat - home sweet home . Didnt post yesterday as i came home late and reach home is about 1 plus already . I was like so damn tired when i'm home so bath and off to bed to sleep .
Haiz.. Sharing secret with shirley yesterday. Her problem and mine is about the same but she's luckier than me, at least her boy treat her better than what my boy treated me </3 I now finally understand and know that boys is actually all the same. Character same and even the reason that they leave us is the same . Want to be good people when they wanted to leave us, finding same good excuses to leave and ended up says sorry i not good enough for you. Finding good excuses when the main reason is that their feeling had faded. Whats BULLSHIT is that seriously. We treat you well, love you well, dote you well but why it still wasnt enough to make you guys to stay with us. Did we expect too much ? I dont think so, we just expect you guys to love and treat us well back . Isnt that so difficult ? Why you boys like girls that treat you all badly than having those girls that treat you well. I seriously dont get what you boy are thinking . So fucking weird !

Picture that we took yesterday :D

Xiaowei is also in the outing , but the bloody her dont want to take picture with me D: end post here. Hearts break every single day </3

Is that called life ?

2011-06-17T06:20:00.000-07:00

Today, I did a thing that i think i not suppose to do . But is alright at least i didnt regret everything that i have done. Why you are still thinking of her, did she really make you fall in love with her so hard ? Why ? "Hongster never die, tiong xim is a lie" --> This is what you say, is it means that you didnt even tiong xim in every relationship before ? all along, you are just hongster ? just take whenever you want and throw whenever you are sick of it already ? For you , girls = toys ? I know You will still love her deeply inside right ? She got so good till you love her so much mahh ? she got treat you so good till you cannot even let go of her and forget everything in the past ? she got cute till you cannot even forget about her ? Seriously, whats wrong with you ? I thought you wont regret everything that you do ? You only will know whats call "REVENGE" in your life ? I thought dumping and forgetting people is your strong point of doing that ? When will you become a mature boy ? when ? when you will finally understand and knows who is serious in loving you and who is not ? Haiya, just slowly sick of everything and 1 good thing is feeling slowly fading away since the day she left you. I know that you wont come back to me, you will just either ask her for patch or find NEW one again. Thats call life isnt it ? I can confirm, if you choose to come back to me, den i not called michellelimmingkin anymore. because its impossible ! Just like pig cannot fly -.- Knowing you would be alright soon and i will try to fade all the feeling away. After this hurtful relationship, i guess next relationship of mine, i would not be so stupid lerx bahh :D Michellecanlivewithouthim :D:D --> her JYJY is the cutest <3

Rotting all along at home till 5 plus and accompanied mummy to go sheng shiong supermarket to buy things. Ate dinner from 531, bought food for daddy and home sweet home :D I'm excited for tomorrow outing :D woohoo ~
Finally can wear heel to town area and shopping as it still GSS ! Ohmygod~ i think i buying alot of stuff again ! HEHEHE ~

Have a bad feeling D:

2011-06-16T07:10:00.000-07:00

I have a bad feeling that you and her may patch. As in, she still haven forget you . she have been asking people around her whether attached or single better D: This show that she still love you alot ? Only that she dont know which choice is better for her ? I know that you love her alot too ! So which mean that if other people manage to change her thinking and thinks that attached is better, she might consider and give you one more chances right ? = you all may patch and last ? Why XMM can make you change ? change to a guy that finally know what call "relationship" and doesnt treat it as a game anymore ( putting wholeheartedly and love her well ). You cry for her, love her, sad for her and everything for her which i dont get to see you does all this stuff in all your previous relationship before D: What if my bad feeling really comes true , what should i do ? Suffering alone once again ? I dont want it to happened, its painful in every way . what is relationship ? why love too much cannot, love too little also cannot ? So how much should we love ? Why people will left and others will come ? I dont get it why i am holding on to you yet you are holding to another girl.
Loving you was easy, letting go was hard, and forgetting was the hardest of it all.

Out with sisters and 2 other guy that i dont know ? haha ! We just meet up to watch movie - eat - home sweet home! Wth right ?! Was like so fast man ! Andand starting of the outing it make me pissed because of some stuff that i dont wish to say. For me to know, for you to find out :D Oh please ~ I'm here to say that Michellelimmingkin , did not help "people" to buy movie ticket before and wait for "people" for so long ! Everytime is people wait for me, get it ? Be more gentleman next time ! HAHAHA ! And joke of the day, "someone" heel spoiled -.- LOL ! HAHAHAHA ! I wont say out is who, i not so bad :P Thinking how sad you was, as you didnt cry because of me before. I know thats UNFAIR, i dont get it why you love her so damn much, I DONT KNOW ! ~

Complicated feeling D:

2011-06-15T08:21:00.000-07:00

Just know that she broke up with you. I dont know whats was the reason behind it but somehow i do not feel happy or sad. I'm only afraid you might do anything stupid. Or i must listen to what sister say : "he wont do anything stupid, he only will either ask for patch or find new one AGAIN." Remember, he wont regret. I was really shocked about it as i thought that you and her relationship is stable, which means both love each other alot. I didnt expect you all will break after one month. Thinking you all might last till 3 month or more. Broke up already, you still put you love her, is that show that you love her alot or somehow like what sister say you are just faking ? Show out to let the girl pity ? I dont know you are what sort of person, but i hope afterall the post, i just hope that you dont make me think that you are bad or change any impression towards you :D
To sisters and brother, You all prediction is right. I finally agree with 旁观者清，当局者迷。

Today, went out with sisters <3 Firstly, went to yang house to webcam again. HAHAHA ! FUNFUN ! :D I got alot of picture uploaded in my facebook ! (Y) Eh. after webcam-ing and waited yang to prepare and done everything, we headed to kopitiam to eat as we was like damn hungry D: Eaten - go blk 63 ( I miss the place and memories ) , to play basketball - slack - home sweet home. Go home use computer and know that something happened to you D: Sisters say its good for me, but does it make any different ? Since he not mine anymore and he wont regret everything that he done to me. He wont love me back, he will just continue-ing his life without me and finding new girls around, yet i still crazy suffering and hope he will still be mine once again ! I'm crazy . I know i too stupid D: </3 Michellelim must wake up wake up !!

This time are you serious ? D:

2011-06-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

Are you telling me that you last time not even tiong xim at all. Just treat a relationship as a game ? want den take, dont want den throw ? If is like that, den one word to you ---> FUCK YOU ! I'm not a toy, i got feeling. i hate 14's even thought thats my birthday, you ruin it isnt it! I guess you and her are happily enjoying your 1 month together right now bahh? How will you going to celebrate with her ? Why she manage to enjoy her 1 month yet i cannot ? *UNFAIR* Where would you bring her to celebrate ? Thinking when you all can last till ? Why 1 month lerx still so sweet ? Dont tell me, you this time really serious in this relationship and change to tiong xim type because of her ? why she can manage to change you ? i thought character forever wont change? Sisters and brother prediction was TOTALLY wrong. All thought that you guys cannot last even a month. But this time all change and say you and her cannot last more than 3 month. 3 month ehh !?! Its like damn freaking long, how can i tahan and suffering all along. Why you wont regret ? Is she treat you better than what i treat you? Do you think she better than me ? Looks better than me ? I thought normally people do regret ? But why are you so different ? TSK ! ~ Really curious how your 1 month with her would be like what </3

Today went out with sisters to teoheng and sing k ! YAY ! FUN :D because we shout like crazy :D *Dont forget, we are living in our own world huh* They accompany me the whole day because of 21 D: Thanks sisters <3 If you guys never accompany me , i didnt even know what would i become ? Sing k - eat - slack - take photo - home sweet home :D

Afraid the day to come..

2011-06-13T08:55:00.000-07:00

5 more min and it would be your 1 month with her. Why you all can last so long without anything happened ? I know that you have prepared to buy a back pack bag for her. Haiz.. i'm complicated, i'm confused D: i dont get it what boy want ? Why they can like and dislike it so fast ? Is relationship a game to you? i know this time you really treat her well, love her well, care for her but WHY ?! knowing you will enjoy your anniversary so much yet i suffering and afraid the day to come. Thinking of you is the worst day i can be </3 A relationship without trust, there's no need to be continued (: ? What this mean? Is this show that she trust you alot ? you trust her alot ? Thats why you guys relationship can last ? Or is it what sister say : You guys relationship is not stable? Brother told me you all can last about 3 month the most D: 3 month !?! Is like so long you know ? How can i take it ?? </3 sad, heartpain is what i feel now. i think i may not be sleeping once again. D:

Today, went out with sisters and brother to bugis shopping. Its GSS but we bought nothing D: As we bought enough stuff for ourself in those previous outing and we was broke now! went out to shopping - slack . And home sweet home. I'm afraid to face the day. Think i gonna cry out loud loud arhh D: BOY, how can you be so cruel to me </3

2 more days..

2011-06-12T07:21:00.000-07:00

2 more days and you will be celebrating your 1 month with her. seriously, I'm afraid. I dont know how to face it myself on that day so i have already book my sisters in advance :D Why 1 month passes, and you still can treat her good, care for her, love her well. Why she can achieve and take everything just for granted. Why you can tahan her so much but not for me? 5 hour little girl can make you fall in love with her so much, what did she do to you? Haiz.. you did not manage to post stuff on facebook nowadays = i may not able to know how your feeling today. she treat you good? normal? or she treat you badly? My mind is complicated. its just telling me that if time could rewind, that would be so good. How long can you guys last? 2 more days and i have to face the fact although i dont want to. I not strong enough to face it myself, i not strong enough to face everything. i not as strong as what you think. I'm just a normal girl, i not superwomen. i do have feeling, i'm hurt, i'm sad. unlike you, isnt it? I guess, you only feel happiness with the one you love and enjoying your life all along bahh ? D: </3

Today actually i'm rotting at home the whole day but in the end out to shanna house as she called me. Short post okay? went shanna house with hong about evening to webcam again :D - help her choose clothing for her outing with SOMEONE :D - chit chatted - home sweet home.

3 more days..

2011-06-11T07:30:00.000-07:00

I dont know why she can deserve anything from you. You can suffer anything or cry because of her, do anything for her, tahan anything for her. i dont get it why she can manage to have both friends and boyfriend that treat her good in the same time. Alot people say she dont really love you in the way how she treated you but why do you still choose to stay with her? WHY ?! Just like what i say, is she special ? But i dont know what others say is it the truth because all along, i think she love you alot and you love her too! 3 more days and it going to be your 1 month with her. This time you will be celebrating with her unlike MINE right? Because this time you have no excuses to say you have brother meeting or BULLSHIT anymore. I know that you definitely will plan your 1 month thingy till damn romantic because you love her alot? seriously, watching you happy with the one you love doesnt make me happy. sorry, i'm too selfish in relationship. i'm not able to feel happy for you when you are with your love ones, i dont know why, i just know that its hurt alot to me. But still i may not be happy if you are sad too! I just dont know what i want. I only wish time could rewind but its too late D: Your heart is black, mine is red. I have feeling and i hurt alot in the way that you treat me, but you are heartless, because you are not the one who is sad and heartbreaks </3. You are the one who is enjoying your life without any sadness.

Today, I'm good girl, i stay at home whole day and i was damn bored D: Mummy very good, She bring me out because she know that i not in good mood. I cannot be alone at home or even outside,i need someone accompany as i will keep thinking alot of those unneccessarily stuff that make me sad or make my mood damn down and it will make my emotional damn freaking !@#$%^&*() which my parents need to tahan my attitude = i will quarral with my daddy and it was like world war 3. So about 4 something, my mummy come back from work. we prepare and we out to hougang. she bring me to her new working place and my mummy bring me to go buy things whatever i want AGAIN ~ hahaha! bought alot of stuff home and it feel better. I found out that actually when you are not in good mood, keep buying things might let you feel better. Thanks mummy, i love you so much <3 Sorry, i really cannot control my emotional and attitude, i know its like volcano. i understand , and you told me before :D

Is she special to you ? D:

2011-06-10T06:07:00.000-07:00

Seriously, why you love her so much ? is it because she too vulgar ? got gang ? Is it because the more the girl is vulgar, the more you love? Seriously, if is like that den is that call relationship anymore ? Sister told me, I must have confidence in order to be a winner. Once no confidence, i'm the loser! She better? she vulgar? So what ?! She not the best of all? She might be better looking than me but i'm CONFIRM i treat you better than what she treat you ! You deserve ? You should know the answer yourself. i dont have to say it out (: Just like what my friends told me, you can enjoy 1 years or even 10 years but not rest of your life ! suffer now and enjoy later, enjoy now and suffer later and the suffering will be more worst! Do you know how pain it was when you leave me without any reason ? Those lies that you told me when i know the truth out there already ? she make me lose confidence because I have no confidence in my looks although everyone say I’m better D: Seriously, why she can achieve those things for granted when she treat you badly ?
4 more days and you all going to 1 month </3. 3 weeks 3 days yet you still treat her very good and still waiting for her text every single day. Is she different from other girls? Is she special? Is she's the one that you had been looking and waiting for ? And why your facebook want to post till so sad when its not even the truth and she's sweet to you? I telling myself, Everything can be fake. You seem unhappy in facebook but in reality you might be happily chatting with her. BULLSHIT ~ sob </3 Haiyo~ seriously, how long can you all last siahh D: I really cannot take the big blow if she break every records of mine. Because if that so, it's just telling me that i'm just NOTHING to you. I just dont get it why last time i can dislike you so much yet now I can love you like crazy. Friend - enermy - lover - stranger. Whats that man ! Back to stranger after all, is this call life ?? D:
Afterall, I just don’t know why any of your action and words can make me feel so terrible and I just can’t get over it </3

Today, went out with xiaowei, kunkun, clara and sieu mei. I and xiaowei meet them at bedok library just to accompany them to study as we have nothing better to do at home. Life is boring without any outings D: Xiaowei very good, she always help me to spend all of my money, "so" good of her right ? You know what !? She bring me go eat pastamania and i wasted $13 just on food. After that, she still pull me go buy shirt ! Haiyo, i going to broke liao. Must ask her to feed me, HAHAHA ! Things we do today is just study - take photo - walk around - home sweet home. Thats actually quite boring but is better than staying at home and quarral with my daddy for no reason ! Seriously, he's annoying. but afterall she's my daddy, = No choice :D

I dont know why you love her so much.

2011-06-09T09:51:00.000-07:00

You say your life sucks when you didnt meet her only for one whole week. You now finally know how i feel when last time i want to meet you yet you dont want meet me for the 1 WHOLE month already? You know how suffering and sad am I already ? 1 WHOLE month eh. Seriously, thats too over! All the reason that you gave me was the same (Brother meeting) when thats all BULLSHIT ! I still remember what you told me : " Lets 1 month meet 1 time! What the fish man ~ Nbcb -'-Now only 1 week, you jiu knn at there kpkb </3. Opps.. Sorry. I too Ji dong already. I'm a girl who dont scold VULGAR, unlike her !!! I'm gentle :D Sisters and brothers all told me that No girlfriend and boyfriends meet 1 month 1 time derx. I'm too stubborn to hear what they say already. HAIYO~ Ours is too special, isnt it !? They say 1 week bo meet, already can break liao lorh! See.. This is how i tahan you all along ! You take everything for granted, yet still dare say NO. You are enjoying your life everyday and i'm suffering like crazy. I treat you good, dote you, loving you but what the shit you give me in return? Is just a freaking sorry or maybe not even a sorry and yet you left me without any reason !? I give anything that you want yet i get BULLSHIT in return D: Heard that she treat you badly but she love you very much. And the more she freaking treat you bad, you FREAKING love her right ? WHY ?! But still.. Seeing you like this, i really dont know i should be happy or sad lorh. 21 i really love you too much, really too much </3 Thats too much and thats too stupid D:

Today, went to NEX and bugis with sisters. We took alot of photo in public! Ohmy.. Its embarrasing but nevermind arh. Its worth it as i long time never out with sisters and took photo's with them already D: Must cherish the time with them isnt it ? :D But.. thats too pathetic already </3 Right !? HAHA! We shop one whole day and we was like damn tired D: We bought alot of stuff because its GSS :D YAY! We wasted over a hundred dollar. COOL ~ After shopping the one whole day and home sweet home D: So tired, Yawn ~

Heartbreak

2011-06-08T08:00:00.001-07:00

Heard that she now treat you very good and you guys today is going for chalet? You say you will bring her go if she can make it. Thats was so sad eh. FIRST TIME ! you didnt bring me to go meet your brothers before D: Thats unfair isnt it ? Why?! Can you tell me why she can deserve so much things from you yet i get NOTHING ?
ARGHH ~ Heartbreak </3 Heard that day the private number was you again. Yet you tell me thats it wasnt you. I dont get it Why you choose to lie to me when it was you and you decided to call me in the first place yet you didnt want to admit it ? Am i just your freaking spare tyre? Because i know that you was quarraling with her on that day. You posted on facebook isnt it ? Seriously, what am i to you? 24 hour spare tyre?
That day when i was replying you in a bastard way, my heart was cracking like hell but i have no choice to do that. i have to treat you meant, in order to force myself to forget you. I try to force myself to forget you but in reality I still love you so much D: I ask my sisters and brothers would you all last? All their answer say "NO" , because character wouldnt change. But for now, what you show me and telling me was everyone prediction was TOTALLY wrong. Thats means you all can last more than 2 month or more and thats hurt me so so SO much which anyone also cannot expect how pain it was to me. I sometime really cannot tahan and take the pain that you give me but i have no choice to force myself not to cry because sisters and brothers that surround me would not feel happy either. 6 more days and it going to be your 1 month with her and you still love her and treat her damn good. Break records and heart BREAKS </3

Today was slacking with Hong, Ahqin, Kunkun, Yang, Xiaowei and Edwin. We went to play basketball and slack around at 533. Standard place :D After that we went to mac and we did something good for yang and it was fun. I feel happy for her but I'm forcing myself to keep smiling and stop thinking about stuff that i dont wish to think about it. End here, should post tomorrow as i'm sad D:

I dont get it D:

2011-06-07T08:06:00.000-07:00

I dont get it Why facebook you will post until she treat you badly when its not even the truth? Did you want any pity or expect others to concern you Or maybe she really treat you badly as what you say? I dont get it why have past about afew month already yet the feeling for you is still there. I dont get it why you will say she treat you badly when you guys facebook look so sweet. I dont get it why she treat you badly yet you still want to stay by her side?! Didnt you told me: " A relationship needs to be happy? If there's unhappy in the relationship then why still be together? I thought in a relationship must be happy?" <-- This is what you told me isnt it? Then whats wrong with you now? why you still choose to stay by her side and seem like nothing happened? Or is it a lie that you told me? I dont get it why she treat you badly and she still deserve you, yet the ONE that treat you good, does not deserve you and gets NOTHING in return. Its all painful and heartbreak that they get? Isnt it unfair? I dont get it why you love XMM so much? I know they cuter but they deserve more than me mehh?I dont get it why you give in so much when you are hinting everyone that you are suffering. As what you say, She treat you so bad lehh? D: Are you trying to tell me that the more she ignore or treat you badly, the more you love?? If that so.. Then i have nothing to say. stay speechless </3

Tomorrow is the starting of my exam so today went school for my extra lesson. I didnt managed to study all of the topic but i hope i pass my exam tomorrow :D Today, went to yang house to take photos again. No worries, because this time i have someone accompanied, that is hong :D. HAHAHA ! Know what?! I and hong took a picture of 71 photo's. Ohmy.. That's too over, but is alright as i like all of the photo that we taken. HEHE~

Your feeling is what my feeling D:

2011-06-06T07:50:00.000-07:00

People treat you good yet you take everything for granted, still say you didnt -.- people treat you badly, you jiu at there kpkb. Seriously, what's wrong with you?! haiz~ Just dont get it why nowadays boys love girls that treat them badly and choose to hurt those innocent girl that cherish them so much. Treat them wholeheartedly but nothing in return. In return is only painful and those harsh words that hurt alot. Treat you good yet you dont appreciate it. People say you dont deserve it because you are still having immature thinking, which is you still dont know how to use your brain and think. Still dont understand that relationship is a serious matter. Many say you dont deserve it because you treat relationship as a game, isnt it ? I hope i was wrong in saying that, so that it means that you did love me before :D
When you see your girlfriend no mood, you said you also will mood shag and so am i ? your mood not good, you think my mood will be very good and i will keep enjoying my life without you? eh. please.. use your brain and think, who will like to watch the one they love sad? unless you dont love them anymore, isnt it? People do have feeling, so think before you speak anything out because the one that love you will remember any single words that you say :D

Haha! Today went school late because hong wake up late again. We go school but didnt study, as we chit chatted about some stuff and by the time we reach the class, lesson is going to end. Wented to yang house and i took picture while yang watch her anime show and siowei was sleeping like a crazy pig. HAHA! After that i went to meet my mummy at bedok inter :D Hooray ~ Mummy bought shirt for me and i was like damn happy as i out of clothes already D: Mummy, love you till the max alright. And i would like to say sorry to you as i know that my attitude is from bad to worst after my worst relationship cause it. Thanks for tahan my attitude and in everything. But still i will try to control my emotional towards everything okay ? :D

Happy birthday, Jerlene :D

2011-06-05T04:34:00.000-07:00

Haiyoyo~ Didnt manage to sleep well last night because of some stupid stuff that make my mind keep thinking non-stop D: I could’nt be able to turn in because of that, i think xiaowei would know what happened bahh </3. Anyway, thanks xiaowei for calling me when my mood was down last night. Really appreciate the care and concern<3. Thanks sisters. Wake up today in the morning about 10, and went to bath and prepare everything as i meeted my cousin and relative at changi airport for a gathering as it was my cousin’s (Jerlene) birthday :D I went to meet them with my brother and is like finally, as i long time never go out together with him and even talk to my brother already. We meeted others at terminal 2 and we wented to eat swensen to celebrate jerlene birthday. It was my breakfast and lunch, i ate swensen combo and it was like damn full. The ice-cream is yummy :D Seriously, i like it TTM ! Done eating and walk around at changi airport for awhile den home sweet home D: Thats a fast day for me and i reach home about 4 plus and i was like damn boring at home, i swear! D: